Life, the universe and everything else

Life, we all have it. But everyone's life is different from another's. No two lifes can be the same. Maybe they intersect, but thats as far as it gets. Some people love life, others dread it. The things we do during the course of our life determine our attitude towards it. As long as we like what we are doing, life will be fun. If we hate what we are doing, we will probably hate our lifes.

Life to me is a dull, long and dreadfull road. It is neverending, stretching on till infinity. Until a car suddenly comes and bangs you, or maybe a lorry, or a truck or whatever. Then you fade into nothingness and your life ceases to be.

Life is a road with many turnings. Turn down one road and you end up in a puddle of mud, or shit, or rain water, or whatever. Turn down another and you end up in a dead end, leaving you with no choice but to turn back. If you are lucky, and if only you are very lucky will you end up finding a pot of gold. If you happen to get the first 2 outcomes, many times you will say i should have/ would have / could have, but the point is YOU DID NOT. So just shut up and face it. You suck at making decisions.

The universe is so large that none of us can even imagine the limits of it. Borderless and infinite the universe encompasses everything we know about or see. There is a book i read entitled Hitchhikers guide to the galaxy, it states something like this: Since the area of the universe can be said to be infinite and the number of people in the universe is finite. Therefore, the average number of people in the universe can be said to be 0 as a finite number over an infinite number is 0.
The truth of this is so real. No matter how great you are, you are just a speck in the great universe. Nothing you do will make you greater. Only with the love of family, friends and life partners can you feel more important then you really are. It is a deception that almost every human soughts after as humans are naturally attention seeking and egoistic. Tell anyone that he/she is just a worthless speck and that person wouuld probably cry. That is the truth and we all know it.

As said by many parents over the world and in many different languages: Study hard so that you can become successful and have a happy life when you grow up.
I wonder if this is true. If you work so damn hard by studying in the eariler years of your life then work your ass out when you find a job. When do you have time to enjoy? In the earliest years of your life when you were an infant, not even understanding the true enjoyment of fun? Or during the last years of your life when you are bed-ridden suffering from illnesses gotten during the working years of life due to stress and other crap? Lets face it, if you hate studying and working you are going to hate your screwed up life or you are going to a life of FAILURES.

One group of people everybody knows. Those poeple are teachers. Students talk about them over breaks, behind their backs. Not always are the comments bad, as regular as they are. One teacher will always be remembered by me, not for her excellence in teaching but how truly what should i say crappy she was. Thats an understatment. Everyone, well at least most people , who knew her would say. Her name was and i think still is: ftuifs (to unrevel her name use a code from the book 'the da vinci code'). She talks a lot of unrelavent stuff during class, well actually most teachers do. Of course these things are supposed to be beneficial to us students. It teaches us morals and gives us wisdom from the experience. The teachers who don't want to teach can tell students their stories and students don't mind as they do not want to be studying. But a line must be drawn in things like these. I do not care who you are DO NOT INTERFERE WITH MY LIFE, telling me my family background and how i should behave because of that. You say you are experienced, tell me that when you are dead, then i'll believe you.

I have also realised why many people want to be teachers. There are many benefits.
1. stable salary
2. pension
3. school holidays
4. liciense to crap ( come on we all know this is true)

I dare say i have not been the boy my parents wanted me to be. During my years of nesting, many mistakes i have committed. Too many to even list down. One of them is my failure to go to a good school. Although they seem to have come to terms with it, i know how they feel deep inside. A part of my life was wasted. Although i had the resources and ability, i was distracted and therefore ended up where i am now. I can see that my parents are sad, even when they laugh, even when they smile. Many a times i wonder how different thing would be if i made the right choices in my life. How things would end. All i can do is wonder.

There is a look that is indescribable. A look i have gotten twice up to this point of my life. By 2 women who have played a great part in influencing my life. Each time i got that look i felt a great pang of regret. I would immeadiately wish i had not done what i was not supposed to. Each time i got that look, i would just hope i was dead. But at last, no matter how smart we are, we all still make mistakes no matter how grave or minor they are.

Many people believe in luck, fate and all the other shit. Let me tell you something, fate is in your hand, control it and use it to make a life worth your living. Luck is bullshit, just a extremly good excuse to use in times of need. For unbelievers, GOD to me is real no matter what you say. I have felt and experienced him too many times to deny that fact. GOD guides me on paths of rightousness though i may sway and wonder. HE never fails to bring me back. Well no matter what GOD you believe in they all tell us to be upright in our ways. I am a sinner, but at least i am trying to change. Here is an oath that i will try to abide, its from the movie 'kingdom of heaven:
Be without fear in the face of your enemies.
Speak the truth, always, even if it leads to your death.
Safeguard the helpless and do no wrong. That is your oath.
TO all readers please take this with you, don't make the mistakes i have. Life a upright life. Enjoy while you can. Do what you like not what will make you sucessful. Happiness is more important then being sucessful. THE MIND GOES FURTHER, BUT THE HEART COVERS MORE.